A guy told me one time, "Don't let yourself get attached to anything you are not willing to walk out on in 30 seconds flat if you feel the heat around the corner." Now, if you're on me and you gotta move when I move, how do you expect to keep a... a marriage? - DeNiro in 'Heat'
I have the emotional ability to walk away from anyone, at any time, for any reason, without looking back - except my wife.
This is a new development for me - I never had this connection before. I met H almost 12 years ago, knew within ten minutes of meeting her that she was the girl for me, and this connection grows stronger every single day.
As I've traveled through life I have found my ability to walk away from people - be they friend, family, romantic interest, whatever, is not an ability most people possess. I've had to walk away from a few people even online, for they chose a path I would not walk. For the professionals out there profiling me, I'm not giving away any information not already in my folder.
Prior to my wife I lived differently than I do now. Tomorrow never mattered. If I spent what money was in my pocket, no big deal - if I wake up tomorrow and need more, I know how to get it. Since my early 20's I've tried to keep a few constants in my life, including at least one 4x4 (usually a CJ or Chevy), and an Akita, and we slept on many dojo floors across the country. Life was a daily event, not an ongoing event.
Leaving the porch would have been a different equation prior to my wife. I still have the same understanding of Life and Death, of our insignificance as silly bi-peds on a rock spinning through space, where we all fit in the larger picture. No matter what I do, in 100 years I will be dead and returned whence I came. Who is, or is not, a slave on this silly planet in 100 years won't matter to me one whit. But now I have a reason to stay on this plane of existence longer.
I have talked to enough of you to know you share my view. Once you have something in life from which you are unwilling to walk away, you start doing things like buckling the seatbealt. You wear the flippin' helmet on the bike. You don't pick fights with people three times your size just to see what happens this time.
Yet there is also a new blossom on the emotional tree of Life. Every action now is for higher stakes.
Now if you must throw elbows it is for all the marbles, not just for fun.
Now that you have something so precious , protecting and defending that person (or family) becomes your primary focus in life. Perhaps you would have left the porch earlier in this long train of abuses if you did not have such a connection. But now, leaving the porch is a more serious affair because you are protecting what lies behind you. John Parker and his men did not go to the Green because the British were in front of them. They went to the Green because their wives, families, and all that was important to them lay behind.
Something that goes too often unsaid on our blogs, and I know a great many III Patriots share this sentiment because you and I have spoken about it: Most of us have zero desire to ever leave the porch. We do not want to do it. But because so many of us have that extra something in life now that is our responsibility to protect, if we are forced from the porch we intend to get the work done so that the Evil no longer threatens what lies behind us. We'll be less merciful. We'll be less willing to stop until the job is complete.
When we were younger and had less in life, we'd have gone for God and Country.
Now if I have to go, it is for H - God and Country will simply benefit by association.
My life is meaningless in the big picture. The life for which I will fight is worth doing whatever I need to do to protect.
Most of the people around me would be content to be left alone. Most of the people closest to me these days share a desire to move to a community together where we can be as removed from Enemies of Liberty as possible. But Marxists will not leave people alone. It isn't their nature.
Marxists: You need to watch what damage is being done by one of your own in LA right now. One of your own is exposing what one motivated man can do. One of your own is giving you only a taste of what will happen if you force one hundred thousand American men off the porch, and we will all be motivated by far more than has led Dorner into action.
We will be motivated by God, by Country and by what lies behind us.
I know this post will not change a single Marxist mind. I wrote it anyway.
Kerodin
III
